A song about a man’s struggle to exemplify the good in a world that isn’t.
Deep within me
There’s potential to be bad man
It’s a constant fight
To control the anger I have and
I feel a killer just arising up from within
And withal I am, I constantly try to control him
It makes me sick
To simply speak to a stranger
Don’t get me wrong
I’d never put a soul in danger
But when I’m all alone I feel I can finally breathe…
So if you could, just all stay away from me
I feel a killer just rising up from within
And withal I am, I constantly try to control him
I bind in chains different parts of my mind
So you think I’m sane and let me stay on the outside
But if you could see me on the inside you’d run away
If you heard the voices in my head you’d be afraid
I feel a killer just rising up from within
And withal I am, I constantly fail to control him
My True Nature (TQV)

That’s powerful, brother. I feel that on a personal level, and ironically enough that’s the same kind of struggle the protagonist in my story feels.
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Thanks Peter – it’s an older one from a more conflicted time, but darkness always comes and goes in cycles, and few are immune once their innocence is gone (taken?). Brother I got your book in the mail and I’m excited to delve into it, I just haven’t had the opportunity to yet. It’s thicker than I was expecting (feel free to insert a joke here, lol.) I can tell you’ve invested a lot of yourself into it and can’t wait to enjoy your work as time allows.
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Thanks! Yeah, it ended up being quite a long story haha. I do hope you’ll enjoy ot, and I think you’ll readily relate to the protagonist and understand him.
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Judging from your response to the comment above, you’re not in as dark a place right now as the song suggests, and, for that, I’m glad. The song IS really dark, and when I read just the lyrics, the pain behind them felt palpable. But they’re real, too, and there’s nothing more brave than being real.
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Omg Lovelorn, I’m so happy now. I just had to break everything and rebuild it with my inner voice. I hope you’ll let me send you a free copy of my book once it’s published because it’s incredible what darkness and pain can be transmuted into with a bit of Defiance. (My book is called “Depravity and Defiance”)
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I’m so happy to hear that. I think perhaps I’m going through a similar process of rebuilding right now, which is probably why I’m drawn to your writing. I’d love to read your book when it’s out. I’ll gladly purchase a copy.😊
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Lovelorn if you think it will help your journey I will happily send you what I have thus far. Just need your promise of secrecy lol. It’s my legacy.
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I’m honored you would offer, and am here if you need an extra reader for any reason, pre-publication. Otherwise, I will wait to read it when it’s all done. That way the reading experience will be immersive and unbroken. (I’m a bit of a nerd like that.) Btw, my name is Nida.
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Nida, Knowing I have one more person to write for will help me finish the book. 🙂 you and Peter are the most inspiring folks to me on here so far (he’s the comment above.)
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